ive got a feeling.

Well my attempt to get it together and blog on a schedule, out the window. Its so easy for life to get in the way. I feel like this post needs to be about the feelings of this surrogate, maybe clear up a few thoughts for those of you with wondering minds. Twins seem to be on every one's mind, its quite funny when people walk up to you with a puzzled look, "congratulations"? And I reply, " um, thank you," I mean really what do you say? Well here are my thoughts:

First off let me just say that yes I am thrilled that mommy and daddy to be are being blessed with double. I am excited for them and can only try to imagine the joy they must be having. Having said that, my feelings for my self are slightly different, please don't misinterpret what is being said here. Carrying two is a little more taunting, you have the extra weight gain, double the appointments, and most important its a higher risk. That's the part that somewhat stumps me, I am healthy and active so I am trying to stay positive, but your only given one body. I think its only natural to be slightly nervous of the what ifs (except for you people who know everything and would never have a feeling such as that).

I guess face to face with people I some what clam up, nervous of what I say and how it will be interpreted (although, not everyone you meet is or has been a surrogate, therefor what they say is exactly that, words they felt needed to leave the brain, the end). Never do I wish that I could go back in time, I'm excited about the pregnancy and even more excited about the experience (not everyone has twins). I mean really, look how cute...

via thestir.cafemom

So cute, if given one of each. Im just glad I dont have to store it in my living room!