and breath.

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I'm not going to lie, Patience is a virtue that I struggle to maintain. Things never seem to happen quite as fast as I would like them too, in less its a major mistake of course. This pregnancy is so close to the end yet I cant help but to feel how far away it seems. My body is certainly slowing down by the minute and the fears are settling. Its kind of bizarre, my fears are so different than what people seem to be expecting. Am I scared I'm going to want to keep the babes? Um, absolutely NOT. My two are quite enough and to be quite logical about it, they aren't mine to keep. Am I scared of labor? Not really, I have a great OBGYN who I have known for many years and trust him, well with my life. Its the creeping days up until this "big day." Its worrying about my sanity and holding on for just a little bit longer, that is what is starting to stir in this brain.

I try to stay in a semi positive place, but like most of us, that's not always the easiest. The complaints I spill out to the hub I'm sure is getting slightly unbearable, but I know all of this is mainly hormonal and super expected during pregnancy making it easier to cope. I know Ill will be delivered before we all know it with a huge gold star on my chart. It never hurt anyone to push there self to their outermost limit, and lets face it...I am pushed.

third trying-mester.

I have ARRIVED! I am knocking on the door and walking in the beginnings of the third and final trimester. Ahh, to think there is a light shining at the end of this tunnel. I have a full 24 weeks under the belly and am on the 12 week countdown. Most importantly the babes are growing, both heart beats are strong, and mommy and daddy to be aren't having second thoughts in the least. On my line of positive side notes, I have only gained twenty lbs, giving me plenty of room to expand ( I set a goal of not to go over 50, so yeah I'm golden at the moment). So I have been told that although I am only ending my sixth month  due to the twin factor, my body feels about eight months...explaining alot. So I wonder, what will I feel like at eight months?

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                                         "watch down below, momma needs a massive nap!"

chomp crunch smack.

I have always had a "thing" we will call it for smacking, you know the noise one makes when chewing food or what have you. It is a HUGE pet peeve of mine and drives me absolutely nuts. I blame my mother who for so many years would constantly remind me how impolite it was to smack my food..."chew with your mouth closed", she would say. Well, I have found a new love and admiration for ice, yes frozen water. And what a plus, its free and zero calories. Score! The only problem is I am driving myself crazy with the noise of it all, and probably all who surround me. Which lately seems to be quite the crowd.Not to mention I feel like my ice machine cant quite work fast enough and my heart grieves when I look at my ice water and see the ice is no more. Oh surrogacy, smack on!

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on the exhale.

To be quite honest I am very relieved that a nursery is not on the brain right now, they are not a favorite room of mine. Not to mention it is reassurance that babe/s will not be coming home with me anytime soon (knocking on wood). For those of you who enjoy decor you know that a nursery is a difficult room, that is if your not that person who blindly walks in a store and grabs the 5 piece set and calls it a day (gross!). Don't get me wrong there is some great crib sets out there, but let me just warn you, you will drop $400 bones, and remember small babies, and toddlers, have weird liquids flowing from both ends. Make sure its machine washable.

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Now, this room, however...majestic, purple, and super nursery is OK. But, white chair, rug, crib...can we say hello to stains and extra washing for the tired mommy. No thank you. Not to mention the more I look at these wall stickers the more I feel like I have been trapped in some creepy princess storybook.

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Once again, way too theme-y. You must remember when having a baby comes unexpected gifts, and people love to give nick-knacks (gross!) Its only polite to display..only for a short while. And this designer hasn't read up on babes and the fact that they respond to black and white first and foremost, can we say over stimulated? Mommies don't you want to sleep? Choose a black and white rug, or throw blanket.

Lay baby Lay, a blog in which I adore, has the best nursery designs ever! I absolute LOVE her Vivi's room, and just about all of her style boards for her other nursery designs. If you are a mommy to be I strongly suggest you check her ideas. She is creative, stylish, and plans the room around the baby with growing room and cohesive intentions for the rest of the house. Enjoy.

VENTura Ave.

Ah, how I wish it was appropriate for me to totally let my hair down and write a major vent session. However, I will not, it isn't lady like and I would really like to refrain myself from any extra questions at the moment. I will ask why? This is a small island on which I reside and news travels fast, so why is it that people still are asking questions that I know they know the answer too? For example, with a squinty face and a stare at the belly..."so its two right"? Uh huh and by the look on your face you already knew that, did you just need reassurance? Or are you mindfully justifying that I have a dripping rocky road ice cream in my hand? Shew sister is sassy. I promise I mean no harm, some days its easy just to want a break, I am human after all.

Tomorrow is a new day full of smiles.
Transparency at its finest.

BOOKED.

...and the destination is...

Curacao !!

Ah, I can barely hold in the excitement. The beginning of January the hub and I will be traveling deep in the Caribbean for a much needed Vay- Cay. No kiddies, great company, and plenty of pleasures. The babes will be safe and sound tucked tight into there beddies with mommy and daddy, and my kiddies will be spoiled ripe by the Meme and Grandaddy.


And let me just say, I soo need a custom kini by none other than Jennifer Harmon, Creator of Jobell.

Why sure this is a little small, but they are custom and I will be in never never land. Not the hottest momma on the beach, but deserving.

Doing the love thing.

I had a very interesting day, its funny how a day can turn bum to fun! (slightly corny I know but truth) Anyway, in Sunday school this morning the teacher rhetorically asked of our favorite biblical scripture. To be completely transparent one didn't immediately pop in my head, so I began thinking, "what is mine"? I sarcastically thought, huh.. "Jesus wept". A clear indication that if the Almighty cried its quite OK for me to shed a tear. But, before you go feeling sorry for me I should quickly let you know that before I lay my head to rest tonite it will be spoken aloud, this very scripture, "If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal". (1 Corinthians 13:1) I mean to tell you, how inspirational. I dont want to be a clanging cymbal, that is a great goal that helps every pal in the picture. I'm smiling and I hope you are! Enjoy this very day. And don't forget, let your hair down and give a little giggle to the Master that stands at the top.

Look at what the Master is giving to two very lucky, but very deserving parents to be.

Little Boy.

Little Girl.

One more little last note. Isn't it hilarious that we look at these pictures and are so proud, happy, and what have you and they truly look like little blobs in a lava lamp gone terrible wrong? ha ha Life.

OMG I die.

MISSONI AND BUGABOO.
I mean, is this for real? I am finding it hard to breathe. If I was crazy I would have another babe JUST to have one of these pups, you get a free Missoni blanket just to seal the deal!

sweet freedom.

Dont you just love the FOURTH OF JULY !!!!!

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Even though I am hot, tire easily, swollen feet, huge appetite and belly, suffer from major interrupted sleep due to full bladder, etc. etc. I am loving the summer! I love my kiddies, hanging with the fam, and all of the above.

I hope your loving AMERICA as much as I am right now!