the ineviatable change.

I love my girlfriends reference to the time frame of her pregnancy, she is 100 months pregnant (third trimester) and that is exactly how I feel. Nine months is long for anybody, but if you remember, this whole adventure started in Novemeber of last year! I knew almost immediately that I was pregnant, and that it was twins, so yes the time is certainly dragging. I get a little hard on myself for expressing my true feelings because they arent always the prettiest and by no means "chic", but I have to quickly remind myself that this is me, and no one said it would be easy. With time passing the babes are growing at an extremely quick rate, the ankles and feet are swollen to unrecognizable measures, and my anxiety occassionally hits the roof, something to do with the 2 1/2 hour ferry ride it takes me just to leave the Island!

With the last Doctors appointment, the babies are doing good, strong heartbeats, rapidly growing, etc. Me on the other hand I am having a hard time keeping my patience and mood swings under wrap. And for the record, YES I am still pregnant, yes I know my stomach is extremely large, and yes I am over it.

The swollen feet have caused me to reach a milestone that may seem silly to most, but remember this is my life. I have to remove my toe ring. I know, some of you are thinking, "toe ring ?, as in tacky, redneck, Myrtle Beach?" But no, this toe ring symbolizes so much more for me. I have had it on since I was in the eighth grade and it, along with a Roxy watch, was the purchase made from my very first paycheck. I am the first to say that I am spoiled right and my parents have made my life extremely comfortable, but I was proud of the fact that I had gotten a job and knew right then and there independence called my name. The milestone has been hit and I am now venturing another, each day tends to be a slightly different with thoughts and feelings. I know deep down I have made huge strides to give lives to a deserving mommy and daddy to be, and there is a light at the end of this tunnel, hopefully with these awaiting.

Frye, Nordstrom